Almost New Year's

It's almost New year's, and I'm pretty excited about that! It's good to have a week off, but honestly, it's been booooring. I havent' really done anything at all, and I'm going nuts. Maybe I'll (hopefully....no, no, I WILL) get all of my homework finished today. Well...most of it. But I definately have to finish my first roll of film, and definately algebra 2, and at least one poem. Guess what, I used to like poetry. Now that's been ruined as well. Oh well.
At least I finally got rid of my ancient nokia and got a new cell phone. if i may say so, it kicks butt. INCLUDING that of Hannah's and Morgan's cell phones. So HA.
Love, Jennifer

2 Days...

Ohh am I excited. Christmas is in two days! Pretty much everyone's favorite holiday of the year, and definately mine. Yesterday was a good day at school, except for how we had a million tests, but it was fun because everyone was handing out presents. Ummm not much else to say, but if I get bored, more later..
Oh I hope Morgan's feeling OK!

4 days...

Only four more days till Christmas! That's sooo good, because hey, i love Christmas. Uhhh let's see. Oh. So I don't like the person I had a huge crush on anymore, or less anyway, but that's kind of for no reason at all. I just do that. Man, I look like an idiot now, but I thought I should be honest.

Christmas will be good this year. I'm excited for one certain "present" for one of my friends. Although it's not exactly a gift, but yet it is. The greatest gift of all, in fact. :) But yeah. I'm not sure how it'll turn out, but I have to try because none of this was ever about me anyway. It's a good, scary feeling. You know. Lol, I hope so, cause I don't.

Merry Crispus everyone.
Love, Jennifer

Good Stuff

Soo I'm deciding snow's not so great after all. It's really really slippery to drive in, and not a lot of fun. Scary... But i'm still in a really good mood, just because of christmas coming up and um...liking someone new and all. and he's actually not a jerk this time. I don't think. And yay! I get to see Hannah tomorrow and then on Tuesday we have an fbla competition! It'll be a good week. :)

Snow!

It's finally snowing. Well, the 'real' kind of snow, I guess. Not the little sprinkling kind. Real snow. I'm pretty excited! Except for this will be my first winter driving, and that's a little bit scary, but I'm sure I'll survive. As long as I don't slide off a road somewhere or something, that is. Haha, just kidding Hannah/Morgan!

Nothing really important's been happening. A few days ago Hannah taught me to cue, and that was really cool. It's all part of this English service project thing we have to do, but I would've still wanted to learn how anyway, cause hey, it's just a good thing to do. Anyway, I've kind of been practicing, but it's sort of weird because there's no one besides Hannah and her family to practice with. So I just look like I'm making odd hand signals to anyone who saw me but didn't know what I was doing. Oh well.

I really don't like not liking anyone. Because at least when I like someone I have things to look forward to. But nooooo. There's no one! There WAS someone, but he proved himself to me the other night. And it wasn't in a good way. I don't know, I kind of thought I knew him, and I should've, but what I thought mattered to him and then how he actually acted ended up being two different things. I don't understand why I liked him again anyway. I really don't. Morgan thinks he's one of those people who I'll always be attached to in some way. Maybe we all have one of those. But the odd thing is, after everything bad that happened last year with me/him, this simple, seemingly meaningless small act spoke more to me than anything else had so far. Maybe that's what's different this time. Maybe that will prove that I won't "always" be attached to him. And that would be just fine. I don't know. I really thought he was different.

Thanksgiving....Yum, Yum

Thanksgiving was really good this year. Maybe because we did it twice?? Haha, no, it was just good spending time with my family, immediate and extended. My favorite part was the stuffing! It was soooo yummy. ---ahh i have to go..

I'm Back

FBLA was amazing! We met some really really cool guys and hung out with them quite a bit (as much as we could anyway). Kind of makes me like "Wosatch" guys even less. anyway, we went to some workshop type things and walked around to the malls, morgan's mom's office...that kind of stuff. i'm feeling really lazy though, so that's all for now.
Love, Jennifer

fbla

It's finally the day I've been waiting for! We leave tomorrow morning to go to the FBLA fall conference, and man, am I excited. Sadly I had to miss Turkey Trot, but I think it'll be alright because fbla is way better than dumb guys anyway! haha....

I just realized my blogs are about pretty much nothing and pretty much no one reads them, so I could "pretty much" just write whatever I wanted in here. But what do I want to write? ....uh, nothing. My life's kind of boring right now. That's all right though, because things should start getting a little bit busier in the near future.....thanksgiving, then christmas, then new classes, then after a bit track will be starting and i'll probably have to work a little bit more, too.

but mostly all I care about (besides the holidays, of course) is track, because I feel really really lazy doing only homework and sitting around playing my guitar. I'd like to say I'm getting better at both, but no, only at guitar. School's been weird this year. Way harder than I expected. Maybe that's a good thing? .....I don't know. Anyway, I need to study more, but hate doing that, so I sit around thinking about how I need to study more. Well that doesn't get me anywhere. Maybe I'll just grow up to be a hobo? wait, maybe I won't even grow up. cause I bet it takes practice to reach that level of maturity, and I'm really lazy, remember? My point is, I AM LAZY. So that's why I'm looking forward to track. Nice, huh?

Getting Good

Soooooo...things are getting good. At least I think they are. You know what sucks but is still good-feeling at the same time? Liking someone, that's what. It sucks cause it's not always really great, especially if you think things won't come out perfectly or that the other person might not actually like you back. BUT (and the but is the part where it's good-feeling) there's still that hope that things might just turn out perfect and that that other person might just like you like you like them. And that's what makes it all interesting and worth it, I guess.

I decided though, things should be done right this time if I really do like him. I need to change some and hopefully, (cause hopefully everyone is growing up all the time) he has changed some, too. But either way, I'm excited about this cause I'm actually feeling something, and that's good!

Well, i'm being kicked off, so i'll continue these thoughts later...hopefully.
Love, Jennifer

Holidays

Well, Halloween's over, but I will say it was pretty fun, although nothing major happened and also my mother wouldn't let me go trick-or-treating. But it was good anyway....I was a genie from the 70's and hammah was "little red riding from the hood". it rocked :)

So Halloween's over, and next we have Thanksgiving, and then of course Christmas. Is it purely coincidental that these approaching holidays and my increasing happiness are happening at the same time? I think not. I'm really excited about the holidays, namely Christmas, and that's a good thing because you know what, it makes me happy. so voila (wah-la ahem... lol). if you feel sad, listen to christmas music or something, cause man, it makes me feel good.

well, my homework's (finally) finished, so i'd best go read my BOM. lol, bom, not bomb. goodnight.

Home Sick

Welll I am sooo tired of doing nothing! I felt like crap when i woke up this morning and decided to stay home from school. good thing, too. but it was really (really) boring. watch tv, read magazines, sleep, watch tv, drink 7-up (which, in this case, isn't really breaking 'the rule' is it hannah?), sleep, read magazines, stare at things. I hate being sick. It's the worst. Hopefully i'll be completely better tomorrow, seeing as how i have to work and all. but it's UEA! Number one, why do i have to work over uea? and number two, why should i have to be sick over uea??

So mostly I sat around wishing I were at school....wait, no, not that. Wishing I weren't home sick, I guess, reading random blogs. Man, there are people with really messed up lives. Lol. Makes me feel slightly better...

I'm pretty confused today, but what else is new? I had to work earlier, and man was it busy! I hate it when it's so messed up and crazy that you don't even have time to stop and breathe. Oh well....I guess i survived, didn't I? Anyway, it's been a dumb weekend so far.
I did have a really weird dream about....people. haha...never mind.

No, I did not die.

Despite what you may think, I am not dead. I have simply been too lazy to blog lately. Lazy or busy? I don't know. Haha.... well. Not too much has happened. The 'fammy's' still awesome. I even got to meet clawface's boyfriend! He was really cool....i'm just sad he lives in idaho and all of the guys in 'wosatch' are stupid.

Hannah is at a swimmeet today....kind of makes me wish i would've been on the swim team. but right now that's not really the best thing...I'm focused on going to Europe this summer! If I can convince my dad to let me go, and earn the money...that would be sooo good. anyway, maybe this will satisfy you, Heb? it better, or else...

Stupid

It's been soooo cold today! And it was kind of a sucky day anyway. I hate....lol "everything". JK, Heb. I just want to have fun for like, one whole week without having issues with people or homework or anything. That would be really good.
well, that's all i really have to say.

Going Back

I think this will be an interesting school year. It hasn't even started yet, but it's starting to feel pressured. Not about school or anything obviously, but just with life. I don't know what to do right now, cause it's not about anything I can fix.

Lake Powell was really really good. I did get a bit burnt, though, and have an interesting tan line on my leg, but it's great anyway. At least I'm finished peeling by now, so it won't look weird when I go back to school. It's still soo weird to say that we're going back already. So weird.

"The Carnival's In Town!"

In case you're wondering what the title's about, some random guy yelled that to me while he was walking by once. I suppose he was a carnie. Does anyone even know what a carnie is? Maybe that's just something I say.... oh well. So Hannah's been at cue camp all week, and Morgan kind of just dissappeared off the face of the earth, but i've done pretty well for myself, i think. Not too much boredom. Since Kyle's back from Alb, I went over to his new house and hung out with him and Nathan, breaking concrete, lol, and swinging on his ropeswing. It was great. Then we went to his farm, and rode around on this mini motorcycle and a regular one and then watched Anchorman, while they edited it for me. Lol, good job guys. Plus I've been at the carnival sort of thing that actually is in town right now with Toni for the past couple of days. Lol, mostly it's just good to walk around and see people.

Which reminds me. Ugh. See? I can never tell a story. Hahaha! Anyway, I saw Jake at the carnival. No, not EFY Jake (I wish!!!) but the other one. What's with me and guys named Jake? Lol, anyway.... Hey hannah, wanna play sbets that I end up marrying someone named Jake? And no, he will not be from Wosatch! ANYWAY, he was with Roberto and April and Shaley. And since Roberto and April are together, i kind of assumed that he was there with Shaley. To my horror, I cared. Dang it. Like....I care, but I don't, if that makes any sense. I mean, I think "well, he can do whatever he wants, it's not like i still like him" but I still care anyway, for some reason. It's stupid. Cause I hated it the first time around, and I don't want to try it again or anything, but I still cared. I hate that. Turns out he wasn't there with her, and he actually was being really nice to me, but yeah. So oh well. Move on, again.

Woohoo...I finally got contacts. It takes forever to put them in and take them out, but oh well! it's good to see!

I was just wondering why I"m so hungry and it's cause I haven't eaten since 11:00. That was breakfast, btw. It's sad, I sleep my life away. Hahaha...time for 'dinner'.

Home

I'm home! Which, I will admit, isn't bad, but I'm really sad that EFY's over. It's hard to get used to being on your own again, and still having this amazing feeling, but knowing that you'll have to work on your own to keep it. If that made any sense. I really really loved EFY! It was probably the best, no, second-best thing I've ever done. Lol. But it was still really perfect. Our group was the best! I was really surprised to be around guys who were good, 24/7. Even considering how I live in Utah! And they were all really cute. The dances were soooo much fun, I just wish school ones were like that. But a really good part is that my dad is going to pay for me to go next year! Woohoo, even better! And yes, I did find a huge crush there.... :D

Waterfight, and My Pretty Band-Aids

So, listen, I'm not one of those sissy fru-fru people who pass out when they have to get a shot. I just don't exactly enjoy them, you know? But here's the problem with today's vaccination. I had been mentally preparing for ONE shot, not three. So that sucked, big time. They were for hepatitis a, b, and a tetanus. Those hurt, by the way. But I did survive, and now I have two pretty blue and yellow bandaids on my arms. What a reward. Lol, oh wait, I suppose the award is not getting the disease, right? However you want to look at it!

Also, the fammy and I decided that 'surprise visits' are pretty good things. Stupid me, I picked, literally, the hottest point of the day to bike a couple of miles to Morgan's house. Oops. But again, I also survived that. It was worth it, though. We had a 'waterfight' which was actually just me, Morgan, and Hannah jumping on her trampoline while her brothers squirted us with the hose. Hey, it was really hot, okay? Hahaha! So we plan on doing stuff like that more often. Woohoo. And also, I got a good amount of exercise to balance out all of those fruit snacks. Lol, good thing...

2:35 AM

I have this realllly bad habit of staying up wayyy too late, I'm realizing. It's like two-something and I'm still up, doing nothing at all, really. It's stupid, but I still can't sleep. Probably because it's soooo hot right now. This afternoon it was 104 degrees, and it's still pretty hot. It sucks. But it's probably better than rain or something. Well, I'll be at EFY in a few days, so that'll be really good. OH. And if Hannah or Morgan read this, ask me about the really good dream I had, involving someone, (haha) and the lake. It was good. Unexpected, but good. I love that, when you have a great dream, but never would've thought of it on your own. Well, I should probably go.

It Took Forever

Well. It's been like a freakin month since I've written anything. Nothing huge has happened...except for my "fiancee" got back! Lol he was gone FOREVER, so I was really happy to see him. Even though he's not really my fiancee, but still, he's my favorite. Tomorrow should be fun. I'm going to do some stuff tomorrow morning, then hopefully the entire 'fammy' will get to hang out for awhile that night! Anyway, it should be fun. Other than that, nothing huge's been happening. I've talked to Kyle Bee some, and even Killian's called, so that's good. You know what I want more than anything right now? To be able to drive. That would be perfect. Maybe Nathan'll start driving us around? Hmm what do you think?

Holy camolly land

well. here i am, finally finally writing again. Hannah's back! Woohoo! And she brought some amazing souvenirs! Now maybe we can finally make kyle bee's package, cause he's probably going crazy wondering what it is I'm sending. Poor guy. Well, i should probably go. But man, i'm proud of myself for finally writing.

Not Being in Hawaii

This sucks, here I am stuck in Midway and Hannah gets to go to Hawaii! Ugh! But we did come up with a plan....she trades her roundtrip ticket for two one-way tickets, so then we both just live there forever. Woohoo. Lol, that's all I have to say.

How girls treat guys

Here's what I decided! If you read this, you have to leave a comment! Especially you, od pepson!!! Lol, jk. About the od pepson thing anyway. But you really do have to leave a comment, so make sure and do that!

I am really excited about school ending and especially about Seven Peaks! And I'm pretty happy because I get to go shopping to get a swimming suit after school today. Man, I love shopping...hahahaha!

So last night I had to work, and this ....ahem....one guy was there. We'll call him....Josh. Anyway, I flirt with him sooo much (like, way too much!), and I realized, "no wonder guys can't figure us out!" Because I like.....make him work for my attention, and that's stupid! I was wondering why girls always play games with guys, and I was a little bit disappointed in myself, and others, and just girls in general. Cause it's probably hard enough for them without having to figure stuff like that out, right? I would think so. We're complicated sometimes. And the dumb thing is, a lot of girls like it that way. So....idk. I feel a little bit bad cause I was being stupid, and now I just hope he doesn't hate me or anything like that. I won't see him for about a week though, so maybe things will just work themselves out until then. I hope so. Either way, I've decided to be more....not complicated. It's not like I really really like Josh anyway, but I still think I should be nicer to him.

So yeah, well that's all....

Last week of school, and a relaxing Sunday

So today was pretty good, uneventful and everything. But that's really good, I needed a day like that! Church this morning, planning a lesson with Toni, then I had to go to the Hub to check something on the schedule (there's a weird hand-holding story in there somewhere), then Dan's seminary graduation. Ugh, after that, I get into this (sort of) argument with my parents, and I feel reallly really bad about everything. Not that I said anything mean, just...it makes you feel bad. After that I went running for a little while to think things out, and I felt a little bit better. I miss track! But hopefully I'll be playing tennis next year, so that should be good. Woohoo! Here's my great plan for this week...

Monday--Make some money
Tuesday--Shopping
Wednesday--Seven Peaks
Thursday--(maybe) Bonfire at Kyle's
Friday--idk yet.
Saturday--BftD

I love the last week of school!

Imperfections

I realized something tonight: life is really imperfect. Of course, we all knew that, but I mean...it's imperfect because we can't control some parts of it. Like.....we all know what we want and who we should like and have all of these standards for what those things should be, but then most of the time life surprises you and you get something totally different. You can't control your emotions! For example, if you realize you like some guy, but because he's different, or not who you think you should like, you don't really want to admit that you do like him. What we think logically and what we actually feel are so different sometimes!

What does any of this mean, anyway? Uh...well, idk. My point is, life is mostly really unexpected, and it's fine to have certain ideas of the kind of guys you want to like and how you want your life to end up...actually, it's really good. But don't feel bad if you get some variety on the way there. Then, when things do end up how you would like them to be, it'll be that much sweeter.

Seven peaks, sports...

Here I am in Computers in Business again. It's great how we don't have work anymore now that the term's basically over (and the year!!) but then we have a lot of waiting around while other people finish.

But I still have no idea what I'm going to do about the work situation, although I did get some help from a certain homemade fortune cookie. Lol.... really, though, I have no idea. There's bad and good either way I go, probably just one will be a little bit worse, and I have no idea which! But for now maybe I'll just let it go. At least until I talk to the tennis coaches and see what kind of schedule it would be.

I realized that I've really liked sports this year. Not like I've done a lot of them, but at least with track, and the idea of tennis, it's good. They take dedication, of course, but are still good. I'm also thinking about swimming, but that takes up a lot (a lot, a lot) of time, so I don't know if that would be so good right now.

And I realized I should probably find a one-piece swimming suit over the weekend, seeing as how we're going to seven peaks. Riding on slides and all that might not be so fun in a tankini. And plus it's probably just good to have. They are sooo hard to find though! Bleah. I'm not really looking forward to it. But hey, I should be focusing on seven peaks and all that right now, huh!!

Better go...

Decisions, decisions.....

SO I've thought of this idea just now. It might be really good or really bad or probably some of each. Working has been SUCKING away my life, and I always feel like I'm missing out on evrything, so that's where this little plan came from. I'm thinking I might want to quit my job, and maybe get one at 'the Keen' (lol) so that I wouldn't be working so much! But the sucky part of that is that I would be making A LOT less money, which is kind of sad. Ugh, idk. i just wish this were easier! Bleah. Any suggestions, I'd love to hear them.

At school...

Here I am, all finished with my CIB test. E-A-S-Y. Luckily most of the tests this week have been like that, except for Driver's Ed, of course. Which reminds me, I have to study my butt off tonight! Big time! Like I said last night, though, I'm feeling better about everything. And since a ton of people are on Spanish or Japanese (grr hannah!) fieldtrips, I have a lot less to present to in advisory. Goood news. I really hate public speaking. Well.....yeah. If I had to create the project anyway, I do. Other than that, I'm okay with it.

Sooo, Hannah, if you read this, I decided that I'm feeling a lot nicer. I let the ....ahem.... one....leadership position thing go, because hey, what difference is it going to make? Maybe they'll be good, who knows, but I don't care either way anymore. So I feel better, and you should to, because...yeah.

Ahhh looks like I still have a lot of time left. Hmm let's see....next I have seminary, then after that will be my Frank Sinatra presentation in Advisory. The lunch...woohoo! I love lunch! Hopefully I won't be eating crackers and cheese again! That sucks. Maybe I'll have a bagel. And if you don't want to hear me talk about food and stuff anymore, go ahead and skip this part. Yesterday I decided I really like bananas. And dehydrated apple chips. Yuuuuum. Lol. Well, I guess I just like all fruit in general, especially melons, and of course, bananas. Now just why am I talking about food so much, you might ask. I don't know really. Probably just to waste time.

I started feeling sad again last night that school is ending. I hate how roller-coastery this is! I think it's just when I feel overwhelmed with work and projects that I don't care if I'm in school or not anymore. But now that I've regained some control with all of that, it's starting to seem sad, and I'm thinking about how I won't see a lot of people for like three months. I hate that part of summer. I looove the sun part, though, and hopefully the sevenpeaks pass part with Sara. I don't really enjoy the working all the time part, but I do enjoy the wads of money part (lol). I love the barbecueing part, hate the you're-not-doing-anything-so-wash-the-dishes parts. haha, yeah, I really detest that part. Tan part is very good. Sleeping in part very good as well. Being lazy part isn't so fun. Going back to school isn't fun, either! Lol. EFY is going to be AWESOME!! So is Ward Youth Conference in Wyoming!! Woohoo. Not for Wyoming, but for spending a few days in complete and utter happiness. I would hope, anyway. :) I love my ward!

You know what I'm really enjoying right now? Not liking anyone. I'm loving that. It feels really good to just be happy by myself right now. I don't have to worry about all of that stuff, cause it can get complicated, and usually always does with me. Pretty much every guy I've liked this year has been wrong for me in some way! Too much of a jerk, too old, not lds, something like that. Well gotta go now. Woohoo I only missed 3/80!

Lettering, and returning to normal (somewhat)

Sooo, here I am, feeling just a little bit better about life, and school, and boys, and, well, pretty much just everything in general. Which is good. Really good! For the past, oh, week, it's been so so crazy and it feels good to get back to normal. And even though I still have projects to present and tests to take, I've at least gained a little bit of control after learning that I passed the practice permit test, i've taken the algebra 2 final test, and (thankfully!) finished the projects.

And I got some great news on Monday! I lettered in track! As a freshman! Woohoo, pretty amazing, I'd say. That's probably been the best part of this entire week so far. I really want a letterman's jacket, but I've heard they're really expensive, so who knows. Also, I would really like an iPod. And oh yeah, a new computer to go with it. Take notes, Hannah. Lol, jk. Why is it that I always say that to you? About the iPod and everything?

So anyway, paintballing (uh, painballing) was amazing. Hurt something fierce (lol, Pearl Harbor), but it was still really really fun. Met some cute guys too, lol! Haha, I wonder who reads this? And I've decided, I will forgive Nathan for killing (well, almost) that poor little frog, or "water-dweller" as hannah puts it. I guess guys just do stuff like that, shoot paintballs into the pond.

Well, I should probably go now, seeing as how I am in urgent need of sleep these days. Wish me luck on the Driver's Ed final! (now just why is that the most important test to me?! hahaha)

"Painball"....woohoo

I'm really excited because I get to go paintballing tomorrow with hannah and casey and nathan and kyle and whoever else! Woohoo! Nevermind that I'm a wimp and it'll probably hurt. It'll still be fun, right? Of couse it will! And again, nevermind that they will be videotaping it. I won't even have to act like i'm writhing on the ground with pain. That would be sad, i hope you didn't laugh. Okay, well i'm tired of writing now. Goodbye and Goodnight.

Traumatic

Today was incredibly stressful! I had to get this tooth pulled....why, really, I have no idea. It took like an hour and a half altogether and I was shaking the whole time! It was the worst experience ever. Not that it hurt (it shouldn't! they gave me three freaking shots!) but it felt and sounded sooo sick. I could hear this cracking sound and I remember thinking, "ohh that's a bone breaking off somewhere." It was such a disgusting sound/feeling. I contemplated whether I should tell him while he was giving me a shot that it felt like he was pushing it into my brain, but he's not a very humorous man, so I decided not to. Anyway, I survived, no brain damage or anything, and hopefully I'll never have to do it again!

Secret (evil) Tuesday

Haha, we finally did good deed Tuesday! Lol, but I can't say what because, hey, then it wouldn't be secret, right? So anyway, here I am with Toni, plotting evil things to do that might offset all the good we did today. Haha, jk! We wouldn't do that! Until we're bored, that is. And okay, Swiss Days brings out the worst in us, gluing quarters to the sidewalk and all. Lol, and then pretending to pick up an entire bag of garbage just to get a box of creamies. But nevermind. Here's my point---boredom does bad things to good people. And that's about all i have to say. Ok, better go before Dan pecks me with his hat. Uh, don't ask...

Sunday Night.....Excitement and more!

Today was pretty mild, besides it being mother's day and all. Last night, however, was pretttyy fun. Haha, me, Hannah, gel pens, chins, and a camera. I think we made some pretty effective dating videos!! Hahaha, "Now for a story from my magical youth. It took place in the sandy, grassy, but mostly sandy, hot, hot hills of saudi arabia...." and let's not forget, "Signing off, your friend, (OR MORE???) Claudio." You know, I think that's all I'll say about last night!

So today in church they announced that all of the graduating seniors would be giving talks in sacrament meeting. I was like, holy crap, Dan is graduating! It's such a weird thought, you know? Then he'll probably be moving out, then who knows..... so weird. Then I thought, I don't even have that much longer until I'll be moving out or going on a mission...then getting married.....ahh it's crazy. Anyway, more later.