To my blog readers

Sorry, i've been neglecting all of you, sort of. But I still love you with all I possess. I'm just lazy this week. Blog on.

Ohh

It's snowing, and that's so weird to me. So weird. It's October! Fall has a lot of time left, doesn't it? So sad. I do love Thanksgiving and Christmas however, so this might be a good sign for me. I feel better during winter.... it just has this feel-good feeling, where I'm happy for no reason at all. It's snuggly. And warm...you get to be close to people, because it's so cold outside. I love it.

There was a swim meet in Tooele yesterday, and I liked it a lot. I dropped two seconds in my 100 free, so now I'm at 1:11:98. I was soo happy about that one! coach told me it was "outstanding", and even Becca said nice things. Lol. My 100 back was painful as ever, but I pushed through it and dropped 3/4 of a second on it. so now I'm at a 1:25:something. As long as I drop time, no matter how small, I will be happy. We got to stop at Carl's Jr after for food, and it was perhaps the best food EVER.

Much Love, Jennifer

I am such a square...

I was a dice last night (die?) for Erin's costume party...let me tell you, it's not easy living inside a box. You can't hug anybody, you can't dance, and i bet you can't get through those spinny counter things that you have to walk through. It was way fun though...Happy late birthday Erin!

I decided today that I probably will be going to Turkey Trot, as long as there isn't some big conflict with a swim meet. I realized also that swimming eats up a LOT of time! I like it enough though, that it's worth it. Now to think of an amazing (cheap) way to ask him... it is also daunting. Could homecoming ever be topped? I doubt it. Brady was a very fun date; Michael insists that every girl is madly in love with Spiva. Lol. Random fact for you.

On Friday the most amazing thing was created...The Cream Pie song! It ROCKS. And I am not even kidding. Me, Britta, Besto, and Michael totally created a band and wrote the song at Lurpe's house. As I was sitting on the bed in the music room, playing the acoustic, with besto on drums, britta on electric, and michael doing bass, I though to myself, "my life is now complete." I was seriously sooo happy at that moment, because I love music, and I LOVE my friends. There could not be better people!

Later that night after everyone else had to go home, Michael and I went to Brady's house (we found him at work earlier when besto was there), and sat downstairs talking. Very nice. Sometimes, I really like to just do nothing. Michael called to say he was sleeping over, and I said that the idea probably wouldn't fly with my dad....lol. Might be fun for laughs though. :) I was pretty sleepy by then and probably said some psycho stuff... haha oh well.

Now I must go get ready for bed, including all my swimming stuff. Time to start the swimming game all over again. Meets every week from now on, pretty much. Woohoo.

Love, Jeb

handicap bathrooms

So everybody knows that you can't park in handicapped spots, unless you're handicapped of course. It's just a nice, moral thing to do. So I was wondering today, does the same rule apply to bathrooms? Like, I have no idea if guys' bathrooms have handicapped stalls, but girls' definately do....can I use those? Because I like them so much more. They're not so SMALL! (haha, hannah, recall a certain incident at the movie theater?) So that's my big question for the day... lol.

Love, Jeb

Hellooooooo

Hola, mi amigo! Bonjour, mon frere. Guten Tag. Goeie dag. Sa'ida. Oki niksokowa. Ni sa bula vi naka. Konnichi wa! So I think you get it. I'm in a good mood today!

FBLA went on a fieldtrip, so I didn't have to go to school! And all I have to make up for it is one three-question quiz in Trig...hallelujah! I fell asleep during the star show at the planetarium, which i felt bad for, for some reason, but it was a good nap. and I am a swimmer, so I have an excuse. It seems like I'm always squeezing in things at inappropriate times now. I read stupid history chapters all day long during other classes, I sleep whenever possible... I'm such a pro at sleeping upright! I have a fantastic story about that, so i'll tell you later if you really want lol. Anyway, what is this about again....?

Tomorrow I'll miss all of my classes except one to take this PSAT test thing, which isn't really going to count for anything, I'm thinking. Not because I'm not smart, but because there are lots of other people out there who care about it way more than I do and spend a lot more time PREPARING for this type of stuff. Sometimes I just like to show up and see what happens, just for kicks, you know? Haha. So tomorrow will be easy, although boring.

Thursday is a swim meet! I'm excited, but very very nervous! It's like, the first REAL meet of the season. I'm swimming backstroke in the 200 medley relay (ehhh), i'm in the 400 relay (free), 100 free, and 50 free. No 100 back! thank you, whoever is responsible for that! So, i'm excited. AND, apparently we'll be back in time to make it to the last home football game! I love fb games :D

Song of the Day: "natural blues" by moby. not because i'm sad, but because it's a cool song.
Color of the Day: steel gray. it matches the sky; i love it
Quote of the Day: "Ilikka bih ba-uh pa-carn..."
Feelings of the Day: sleepiness, drive, stress, relief, accomplishment, happiness, excitement
Person(s) of the Day: Morgan and Spiva. Because of tree-hugger-day plans.

Much Love, Jeb

This blog sucks. Read it anyway.

Wow so today was pretty good, considering it was a monday and all. I did a lot of that thing, you know, the procrastinating thing. Funny, I realize that it's just going to make my life harder later, but still, somehow I guess I don't care.

I'm starting to realize the harder I work to try and make things go my way, the less I do. When i just sit back and stop freaking out, usually things turn out better. Hmm. Weird. Isn't this somehow backwards? Eh. Anyway, maybe if I just let things happen, they'll start to go my way. Seems like that hasn't happened for at least...ugh. Like, four months. Sick.

Sorry, blog readers. This one sucked. I love you guys anyway!

Much love, Jeb

They don't know

Think of the person (non-family member) who loves you the most. Who cares about you the very most. Who is it? But what if you're totally wrong? What if there's someone out there who cares about you more than anyone else in the world....and you could go forever without ever knowing it. You could never know that there was always someone who loved you, nomatter what you did or said, or how bad you screwed things up. Someone who thought about you every night, and worried about you, and did everything they could to make life easier for you, you just never knew it. Wow. What if we all have one of these people? And we don't even know. What if you are one of these people? And they don't even know....

It's Wednesday...No, Friday!

Today was Friday! In a Wednesday kind of way, anyway. I am soooooooo happy because it's UEA break starting tomorrow, so no school Thurs or Fri. Today we all hung out pretty much all day, then all went to the football game. Wasatch lost. Surprise. Somehow I'm still disappointed every time we lose, although i should be getting used to it, I guess. Crazy me. Squash that optimism. So anyway, it was a good night. I'm working on (REALLY working on) not freaking out over stuff, or reading into every single detail of things, or overanalyzing everything that happens. That stuff'll drive me nuts. Surprisingly, it's working, and things are going okay. Yay.

Hmm, what else? So I met, like, actually met, Hannah's friend T tonight, which was...interesting. Some people have weird ideas of first impressions i guess. Lol, but I'm willing to forget that happened and maybe start over. Because I did eventually get my hat back. And because eventually I choose to be a good person most of the time. ha.

Well, that's about all I've got for today. Now for an amazing quote to make you happy. And hungry for rice.

"I like rice. Rice is great if you're hungry and want 2000 of something."
-Mitch Hedberg

Love Jeb

On nights when I don't actually have to get up at five to swim, I always feel like if i don't stay up really late, i've wasted it. so i end up staying up until like two a.m., which makes it very hard to get back into "five a.m. mindset" when i have to again. it's dumb lol.

this is a blog about NOTHING!

Everything on my mind, I don't really want to post here, so there's nothing else to say. Only that i'm frustrated with everything and I don't understand why I'm freaking out about stuff so much. It's just simple stuff. Stuff that I shouldn't worry about, but I do. Bleahhhaddhadkf. Good thing I posted all that, now you guys definately understand. lol

Who reads this blog anyway? Just a little science experiment, everyone who reads this has to comment. just your name if you want, but I'm curious to know who's reading. it may affect future blogs lol.

Love, Jeb.

ohhh i forgot. Everyone went to Brady's to watch X-men tonight, which was mucho fun. I wish we could all be together every weekend.......i love it! Morgan adn I wrote an emo song for everyone, which was amazing and so fantastically emo. Michael cried. lol jk.

Love again, Jeb.

a poem.

Here is a poem I wrote (sort of, in my head), while swimming laps and laps.

While I'm Under

I feel so slick
As I slip in again.
While I'm under
It becomes clear that
I live in two worlds now
And who could tell which one came first?
For awhile I forget
That breathing doesn't involve water.
Only rhythms now; in's and out's
Left's and Right's
And so many numbers.
Down below, it is only patience,
And impatience.
It is pain,
And glory.
The pool is my enemy,
And it is my best friend.
After awhile I start to feel like a machine,
My arms never stop moving,
And I forget that I used to like air.
As light dances and slides along the bottom,
It's like little droplets of rain on my back
And I feel weird, like I'm watching
Through a camera.
It's so quiet and so loud all at once.
A voice somewhere above
Is all distorted, like an invisible hand
Is playing with the frequency and volume knobs
Somewhere.
It is saying, Go on, Go on
So I do.
I might want to stop...
But the water is
just
too
slick.

In accounting

So here I am in accounting, sitting here because we were supposed to have a test today, but the juniors had an assembly sort of thing so no test. Which has happened twice today! First, for the first time EVER, no devil quiz in ednet history! And now accounting! Makes me very happy. :) Hmmm what else? Idk. Life is kind of...boring....ish....right now, just because nothing is happening. Although I will say, I LOVE love LOVE everyone i hang out with! This year we started hanging out with mike, spiva, besto, erin, britta, and sometimes kelsey more and it rocks. I love it. I definately agree with Brady when he says this winter will be amazing, because it will.

Lately i'm getting really scared of graduating! I still have this year and next, but I really like high school....and don't want it to end! I hate change! That's my biggest thing, I definately hate change, because most of the time I love where i am, and what i'm doing. No change. Lol.

On Friday I went with "maria" to this banquet sort of thing, which was a fundraiser for an organization called "the pregnancy resource center." It was interesting, lol. But the food was delicious! It was pretty cool though, we got to see a live ultrasound....it's soooo cool. Makes everything that happens and puts everything I see now into a different perspective. So weird.

Well.........that's mostly all i got. I am soo bored.

Love, Jeb