So I haven't really blogged for awhile, and yet again, not much to say. But I do love you all a lot and wanted to stop by. Haha. As if I don't see you everyday. But still. I will say this. What will your life be about? Is it deadlines and achievements and success? Because I'm realizing those are not life, they are just side effects of living. Just go do something you really, really want to, because what else do you have?
Love, Jennifer
Monday, January 28, 2008
Sunday, January 13, 2008
dear friend
By the way, I have no idea who this is, but I have a random fan from the great lakes region who always shows up on my visitor map. Welcome Great Lakes Friend!
Mis Pantalones!
Herlo, Od Pepson!
So I got some really cool, but really intimidating news this morning. I awoke to the sound of multiple doorbells, otherwise known as Hannah texting me a long text. Apparently there are still swimming type of people who wake up before ten thirty, unlike me. Anyway, she told me that if I want to, I can become nationally certified in cueing sometime close to this summer. And THAT means that I'd be able to get a freaking awesome, really good paying job for college. Do I want that? yes. very much so. But then I thought about it, how I'm not actually all that great at cueing. Actually, how I'm really quite bad at it.
This is all part of that weirdo thing that goes on in my mind every so often, mostly when I get out of my comfort zone at all, or when I try anything new, or change anything, or realize that I have a lot of work ahead of me. It's the "give up now!" voice. I hate that thing. But then I thought about it more. And I thought about how the only things I've ever regretted have been things that I did not do. The times when I was too afraid to try something, those have been the ones I really wish I would have. The worst I can do is fail at something, right? So "brand new resolve" Jennifer showed up and I decided to go for it. A whole bunch of work? Oh, definitely. But I will never be able to regret not trying.
So there's my inspirational moment for the weekend. It was a good one, by the way. Thursday night I went to the pasta party at Creighton's house, and remembered how much fun those things used to be. Friday night, I hung out with Morgan and Brady doing silly, useless things which actually turned out to be entertaining in their own way. And Saturday, I went to my dear friend Natalie's house for a birthday fiesta, which was a lot of fun. AND, I got to watch three movies (two of them new!) and read half a book. AND I got two new CDs, both of which I like a lot, although I must admit, Sufjan Stevens gets the award for quirkiness. It was a good weekend for media. Ha ha.
Love, Jennifer
Don't you love fresh starts?
So I got some really cool, but really intimidating news this morning. I awoke to the sound of multiple doorbells, otherwise known as Hannah texting me a long text. Apparently there are still swimming type of people who wake up before ten thirty, unlike me. Anyway, she told me that if I want to, I can become nationally certified in cueing sometime close to this summer. And THAT means that I'd be able to get a freaking awesome, really good paying job for college. Do I want that? yes. very much so. But then I thought about it, how I'm not actually all that great at cueing. Actually, how I'm really quite bad at it.
This is all part of that weirdo thing that goes on in my mind every so often, mostly when I get out of my comfort zone at all, or when I try anything new, or change anything, or realize that I have a lot of work ahead of me. It's the "give up now!" voice. I hate that thing. But then I thought about it more. And I thought about how the only things I've ever regretted have been things that I did not do. The times when I was too afraid to try something, those have been the ones I really wish I would have. The worst I can do is fail at something, right? So "brand new resolve" Jennifer showed up and I decided to go for it. A whole bunch of work? Oh, definitely. But I will never be able to regret not trying.
So there's my inspirational moment for the weekend. It was a good one, by the way. Thursday night I went to the pasta party at Creighton's house, and remembered how much fun those things used to be. Friday night, I hung out with Morgan and Brady doing silly, useless things which actually turned out to be entertaining in their own way. And Saturday, I went to my dear friend Natalie's house for a birthday fiesta, which was a lot of fun. AND, I got to watch three movies (two of them new!) and read half a book. AND I got two new CDs, both of which I like a lot, although I must admit, Sufjan Stevens gets the award for quirkiness. It was a good weekend for media. Ha ha.
Love, Jennifer
Don't you love fresh starts?
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
bits of my year
So, I thought I'd start this new blogging year (and finish up the old one) by providing you, my faithful readers, with a little peek into the world of my paper journal. That's right. The one where I write all my wildest, deepest thoughts and dreams. Haha. So here they are, a few little tidbits from different points throughout 2007 that I feel like sum up the year quite well. Hoorah.
2007, The Year I Learned It All. Ha.
January 3: "Scared out of (my) mind..."
January 14: "It was the most satisfying smash of my life."
January 27: "I've been blind in a lot of ways."
January 28: "...for the tiniest moment, I remembered what it was like to love him."
January 31: "My defenses are down."
February 4: "I thought to myself that I never wanted to be apart from these people."
February 27: "I can only say that life has a way of being exquisitely painful."
March 1: "...some days, when life seems especially ugly, it's nice to know someone remembers your name."
March 11: "...but in my mind, I just thought, I'm sorry I'm such an idiot."
March 12: "I thought about cornflakes."
March 24: "...surprising myself by feeling like it meant nothing."
April 1: "I couldn't believe I told him."
April 17: "I just really hope she'll be okay."
April 22: "It always seems like all these life events are thrust on me at once."
April 25: "He changed so much."
May 17: "I thought about it then, how easy it is for me to talk to her, and I felt so happy that I have her as a friend."
May 28: "...I have my fingers crossed."
May 29: "Well, it was a flaming failure."
June 3: "I sure hope he didn't look down."
June 5: "...I hate that I did that."
June 24: "That was definitely not meant for me."
June 27: "I'm in love with Chicago!"
July 14: "I still really care what he thinks of me."
August 12: "...how self-destructive..."
August 15: "What does (he) think he's doing?"
September 9: "The suspense is killing me!"
September 17: "I met the elusive Kenneth last night."
September 30: "I've seen (him) as a person. And that's it."
October 2: "It's not magic."
November 9: "What is going on here?"
November 13: "What a mystery love is."
November 24: "What would they think? They have no idea."
November 29: "Anyway, there it is. My future."
December 18: "My brain just feels all over the place."
December 21: "She knows all about (it) and all."
December 30: "My face has been pretty puffy..."
December 31: "Eat more vegetables!"
Happy New Year!
Much Love, Jennifer
2007, The Year I Learned It All. Ha.
January 3: "Scared out of (my) mind..."
January 14: "It was the most satisfying smash of my life."
January 27: "I've been blind in a lot of ways."
January 28: "...for the tiniest moment, I remembered what it was like to love him."
January 31: "My defenses are down."
February 4: "I thought to myself that I never wanted to be apart from these people."
February 27: "I can only say that life has a way of being exquisitely painful."
March 1: "...some days, when life seems especially ugly, it's nice to know someone remembers your name."
March 11: "...but in my mind, I just thought, I'm sorry I'm such an idiot."
March 12: "I thought about cornflakes."
March 24: "...surprising myself by feeling like it meant nothing."
April 1: "I couldn't believe I told him."
April 17: "I just really hope she'll be okay."
April 22: "It always seems like all these life events are thrust on me at once."
April 25: "He changed so much."
May 17: "I thought about it then, how easy it is for me to talk to her, and I felt so happy that I have her as a friend."
May 28: "...I have my fingers crossed."
May 29: "Well, it was a flaming failure."
June 3: "I sure hope he didn't look down."
June 5: "...I hate that I did that."
June 24: "That was definitely not meant for me."
June 27: "I'm in love with Chicago!"
July 14: "I still really care what he thinks of me."
August 12: "...how self-destructive..."
August 15: "What does (he) think he's doing?"
September 9: "The suspense is killing me!"
September 17: "I met the elusive Kenneth last night."
September 30: "I've seen (him) as a person. And that's it."
October 2: "It's not magic."
November 9: "What is going on here?"
November 13: "What a mystery love is."
November 24: "What would they think? They have no idea."
November 29: "Anyway, there it is. My future."
December 18: "My brain just feels all over the place."
December 21: "She knows all about (it) and all."
December 30: "My face has been pretty puffy..."
December 31: "Eat more vegetables!"
Happy New Year!
Much Love, Jennifer
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