Hope persists.

So this is about how my life feels lately. Open one door, get shut out, open another. Which opens to more choices. This job thing has become rather tedious lately. There's really no way of telling what will work and what won't, so I keep turning in my applications and resumes, hoping to hit the jackpot and find that one door that actually opens for me. No luck so far, but what can I do except keep trying?

Today was rather full of ups and downs, first some ups as I left a couple places after turning my applications in, getting actually positive responses from both. Let me tell you, there is no feeling like hope. Later, at the place where I was most excited to speak with someone about a job, I got the worst response yet, and left feeling really angry and even embarrassed. All because of the wrong advice given to me when I called earlier. Not my fault. Not exactly anyway. But I left feeling so terrible and also (worst of all!) so suddenly devoid of hope about my situation. I noticed then this really strange tendency for my mood to completely affect the way I perceive the world. Earlier, as I drove home feeling awesome about good outlooks for the future, pretty much EVERYTHING I saw made me happy. I noticed how great Salt Lake is, how freaking wonderful bobbleheads in cars are, how perfectly fall-like it is these days, and how much I still had going for me, jobless or not. After being so jilted, I drove home hating pretty much everything, including all those people who have jobs and can only complain about having to go to work. At least you have work!

Really, nothing changed today. Except for my perspective on everything, and I must say, I prefer a positive outlook. I am learning though, that hope is an especially springy friend and always seems to bounce back, equally as full of life as before. Which is good, because during the hardest times, sometimes all you can do is hold onto those little strings of faith and wait for things to work out.

Oh, and by the way! Excellent news, if I may say so myself. Nicole, from ANTM 13 has made it to the top two. I'm just going to brag here, and say she has been my favorite since her very odd beginnings. Good to know I'm right :) If you have no idea what I'm talking about, shame on you. Or good for you? Something.

Love, Jennifer

Friday Night Comforts

So here I am on a Friday night, sitting in my snuggly bed, comforter all wrinkled and bunched up and gloriously puffy.  All day I have been reading a book about discovery and adventure and, of course, taking wonderful naps.  I have a nice cold glass of water with ice cubes marinating inside.  As soon as they're soft and ready I will enjoy chewing on some really awesome crunchy ice.  No one else is home yet; everything is rather peaceful.  I'll probably paint my nails grey.  Soon I'll join some of my very favorite people for some delicious, warm food.  And then I'll come home to the still, dark quiet and put on my pajamas and turn on Dexter.  Donald and I will cuddle and watch our favorite serial killer do his thing ("How do you think he's going to get out of this one!?").  And yeah...that's about how it will go.

I really, really love days like this.  There's no better way to close a long week (especially one like this week, seriously) than wrapping myself up in every comfort in the world and enjoying them to their fullest.  (By the way, t

he ice is getting really wonderful at this point.  Mm.  Ice.)

I like the average college weekend as much as the next person, but sometimes it's just really nice to get away from parties and people, people, people, and just enjoy the really simple things that make you happy.

This morning I woke up and it was just one of those mornings where everything seems like the perfect combination of elements to produce a just-right day.  First of all, it was a jacket-less day which in itself is a thing of wonder.  I'm so not ready for cold yet.  And as I walked to the TRAX station, there was a warm wind blowing thousands of leaves all over earth.  Not only leaves, the Fall Kind of Leaves:  huge, crunchy, perfectly orange and gold.  It was pretty much wonderful.  I'm not sure what it is, but lately I've been realizing how great the simple things are, and how much happier they make me than anything else.  I guess it's just a nice feeling to be content with your life in the moment, and have no need for anything extra.

Happy Friday.  Hope yours is filled with every comfort :)

P.S., How amazing would it be to sleep here??

Love, Jennifer