How girls treat guys

Here's what I decided! If you read this, you have to leave a comment! Especially you, od pepson!!! Lol, jk. About the od pepson thing anyway. But you really do have to leave a comment, so make sure and do that!

I am really excited about school ending and especially about Seven Peaks! And I'm pretty happy because I get to go shopping to get a swimming suit after school today. Man, I love shopping...hahahaha!

So last night I had to work, and this ....ahem....one guy was there. We'll call him....Josh. Anyway, I flirt with him sooo much (like, way too much!), and I realized, "no wonder guys can't figure us out!" Because I like.....make him work for my attention, and that's stupid! I was wondering why girls always play games with guys, and I was a little bit disappointed in myself, and others, and just girls in general. Cause it's probably hard enough for them without having to figure stuff like that out, right? I would think so. We're complicated sometimes. And the dumb thing is, a lot of girls like it that way. So....idk. I feel a little bit bad cause I was being stupid, and now I just hope he doesn't hate me or anything like that. I won't see him for about a week though, so maybe things will just work themselves out until then. I hope so. Either way, I've decided to be more....not complicated. It's not like I really really like Josh anyway, but I still think I should be nicer to him.

So yeah, well that's all....

Last week of school, and a relaxing Sunday

So today was pretty good, uneventful and everything. But that's really good, I needed a day like that! Church this morning, planning a lesson with Toni, then I had to go to the Hub to check something on the schedule (there's a weird hand-holding story in there somewhere), then Dan's seminary graduation. Ugh, after that, I get into this (sort of) argument with my parents, and I feel reallly really bad about everything. Not that I said anything mean, just...it makes you feel bad. After that I went running for a little while to think things out, and I felt a little bit better. I miss track! But hopefully I'll be playing tennis next year, so that should be good. Woohoo! Here's my great plan for this week...

Monday--Make some money
Tuesday--Shopping
Wednesday--Seven Peaks
Thursday--(maybe) Bonfire at Kyle's
Friday--idk yet.
Saturday--BftD

I love the last week of school!

Imperfections

I realized something tonight: life is really imperfect. Of course, we all knew that, but I mean...it's imperfect because we can't control some parts of it. Like.....we all know what we want and who we should like and have all of these standards for what those things should be, but then most of the time life surprises you and you get something totally different. You can't control your emotions! For example, if you realize you like some guy, but because he's different, or not who you think you should like, you don't really want to admit that you do like him. What we think logically and what we actually feel are so different sometimes!

What does any of this mean, anyway? Uh...well, idk. My point is, life is mostly really unexpected, and it's fine to have certain ideas of the kind of guys you want to like and how you want your life to end up...actually, it's really good. But don't feel bad if you get some variety on the way there. Then, when things do end up how you would like them to be, it'll be that much sweeter.

Seven peaks, sports...

Here I am in Computers in Business again. It's great how we don't have work anymore now that the term's basically over (and the year!!) but then we have a lot of waiting around while other people finish.

But I still have no idea what I'm going to do about the work situation, although I did get some help from a certain homemade fortune cookie. Lol.... really, though, I have no idea. There's bad and good either way I go, probably just one will be a little bit worse, and I have no idea which! But for now maybe I'll just let it go. At least until I talk to the tennis coaches and see what kind of schedule it would be.

I realized that I've really liked sports this year. Not like I've done a lot of them, but at least with track, and the idea of tennis, it's good. They take dedication, of course, but are still good. I'm also thinking about swimming, but that takes up a lot (a lot, a lot) of time, so I don't know if that would be so good right now.

And I realized I should probably find a one-piece swimming suit over the weekend, seeing as how we're going to seven peaks. Riding on slides and all that might not be so fun in a tankini. And plus it's probably just good to have. They are sooo hard to find though! Bleah. I'm not really looking forward to it. But hey, I should be focusing on seven peaks and all that right now, huh!!

Better go...

Decisions, decisions.....

SO I've thought of this idea just now. It might be really good or really bad or probably some of each. Working has been SUCKING away my life, and I always feel like I'm missing out on evrything, so that's where this little plan came from. I'm thinking I might want to quit my job, and maybe get one at 'the Keen' (lol) so that I wouldn't be working so much! But the sucky part of that is that I would be making A LOT less money, which is kind of sad. Ugh, idk. i just wish this were easier! Bleah. Any suggestions, I'd love to hear them.

At school...

Here I am, all finished with my CIB test. E-A-S-Y. Luckily most of the tests this week have been like that, except for Driver's Ed, of course. Which reminds me, I have to study my butt off tonight! Big time! Like I said last night, though, I'm feeling better about everything. And since a ton of people are on Spanish or Japanese (grr hannah!) fieldtrips, I have a lot less to present to in advisory. Goood news. I really hate public speaking. Well.....yeah. If I had to create the project anyway, I do. Other than that, I'm okay with it.

Sooo, Hannah, if you read this, I decided that I'm feeling a lot nicer. I let the ....ahem.... one....leadership position thing go, because hey, what difference is it going to make? Maybe they'll be good, who knows, but I don't care either way anymore. So I feel better, and you should to, because...yeah.

Ahhh looks like I still have a lot of time left. Hmm let's see....next I have seminary, then after that will be my Frank Sinatra presentation in Advisory. The lunch...woohoo! I love lunch! Hopefully I won't be eating crackers and cheese again! That sucks. Maybe I'll have a bagel. And if you don't want to hear me talk about food and stuff anymore, go ahead and skip this part. Yesterday I decided I really like bananas. And dehydrated apple chips. Yuuuuum. Lol. Well, I guess I just like all fruit in general, especially melons, and of course, bananas. Now just why am I talking about food so much, you might ask. I don't know really. Probably just to waste time.

I started feeling sad again last night that school is ending. I hate how roller-coastery this is! I think it's just when I feel overwhelmed with work and projects that I don't care if I'm in school or not anymore. But now that I've regained some control with all of that, it's starting to seem sad, and I'm thinking about how I won't see a lot of people for like three months. I hate that part of summer. I looove the sun part, though, and hopefully the sevenpeaks pass part with Sara. I don't really enjoy the working all the time part, but I do enjoy the wads of money part (lol). I love the barbecueing part, hate the you're-not-doing-anything-so-wash-the-dishes parts. haha, yeah, I really detest that part. Tan part is very good. Sleeping in part very good as well. Being lazy part isn't so fun. Going back to school isn't fun, either! Lol. EFY is going to be AWESOME!! So is Ward Youth Conference in Wyoming!! Woohoo. Not for Wyoming, but for spending a few days in complete and utter happiness. I would hope, anyway. :) I love my ward!

You know what I'm really enjoying right now? Not liking anyone. I'm loving that. It feels really good to just be happy by myself right now. I don't have to worry about all of that stuff, cause it can get complicated, and usually always does with me. Pretty much every guy I've liked this year has been wrong for me in some way! Too much of a jerk, too old, not lds, something like that. Well gotta go now. Woohoo I only missed 3/80!

Lettering, and returning to normal (somewhat)

Sooo, here I am, feeling just a little bit better about life, and school, and boys, and, well, pretty much just everything in general. Which is good. Really good! For the past, oh, week, it's been so so crazy and it feels good to get back to normal. And even though I still have projects to present and tests to take, I've at least gained a little bit of control after learning that I passed the practice permit test, i've taken the algebra 2 final test, and (thankfully!) finished the projects.

And I got some great news on Monday! I lettered in track! As a freshman! Woohoo, pretty amazing, I'd say. That's probably been the best part of this entire week so far. I really want a letterman's jacket, but I've heard they're really expensive, so who knows. Also, I would really like an iPod. And oh yeah, a new computer to go with it. Take notes, Hannah. Lol, jk. Why is it that I always say that to you? About the iPod and everything?

So anyway, paintballing (uh, painballing) was amazing. Hurt something fierce (lol, Pearl Harbor), but it was still really really fun. Met some cute guys too, lol! Haha, I wonder who reads this? And I've decided, I will forgive Nathan for killing (well, almost) that poor little frog, or "water-dweller" as hannah puts it. I guess guys just do stuff like that, shoot paintballs into the pond.

Well, I should probably go now, seeing as how I am in urgent need of sleep these days. Wish me luck on the Driver's Ed final! (now just why is that the most important test to me?! hahaha)

"Painball"....woohoo

I'm really excited because I get to go paintballing tomorrow with hannah and casey and nathan and kyle and whoever else! Woohoo! Nevermind that I'm a wimp and it'll probably hurt. It'll still be fun, right? Of couse it will! And again, nevermind that they will be videotaping it. I won't even have to act like i'm writhing on the ground with pain. That would be sad, i hope you didn't laugh. Okay, well i'm tired of writing now. Goodbye and Goodnight.

Traumatic

Today was incredibly stressful! I had to get this tooth pulled....why, really, I have no idea. It took like an hour and a half altogether and I was shaking the whole time! It was the worst experience ever. Not that it hurt (it shouldn't! they gave me three freaking shots!) but it felt and sounded sooo sick. I could hear this cracking sound and I remember thinking, "ohh that's a bone breaking off somewhere." It was such a disgusting sound/feeling. I contemplated whether I should tell him while he was giving me a shot that it felt like he was pushing it into my brain, but he's not a very humorous man, so I decided not to. Anyway, I survived, no brain damage or anything, and hopefully I'll never have to do it again!

Secret (evil) Tuesday

Haha, we finally did good deed Tuesday! Lol, but I can't say what because, hey, then it wouldn't be secret, right? So anyway, here I am with Toni, plotting evil things to do that might offset all the good we did today. Haha, jk! We wouldn't do that! Until we're bored, that is. And okay, Swiss Days brings out the worst in us, gluing quarters to the sidewalk and all. Lol, and then pretending to pick up an entire bag of garbage just to get a box of creamies. But nevermind. Here's my point---boredom does bad things to good people. And that's about all i have to say. Ok, better go before Dan pecks me with his hat. Uh, don't ask...

Sunday Night.....Excitement and more!

Today was pretty mild, besides it being mother's day and all. Last night, however, was pretttyy fun. Haha, me, Hannah, gel pens, chins, and a camera. I think we made some pretty effective dating videos!! Hahaha, "Now for a story from my magical youth. It took place in the sandy, grassy, but mostly sandy, hot, hot hills of saudi arabia...." and let's not forget, "Signing off, your friend, (OR MORE???) Claudio." You know, I think that's all I'll say about last night!

So today in church they announced that all of the graduating seniors would be giving talks in sacrament meeting. I was like, holy crap, Dan is graduating! It's such a weird thought, you know? Then he'll probably be moving out, then who knows..... so weird. Then I thought, I don't even have that much longer until I'll be moving out or going on a mission...then getting married.....ahh it's crazy. Anyway, more later.