Love from Ben G. and Jeb

So these three things sum up my next two weeks. (hopefully). I'll be leaving for my brother's wedding in minnesota tomorrow morning for most of the weekend, then on Monday I will be going to Girls' Camp for the week. And then, I sure hope, Friday night Besto and I and anyone else who wants to come should be going to the Straylight Run concert.

Something amazing happened to me on sunday. I was sitting around, doing a lot of nothing, and I get one of those fantastic calls from Britta, about a hypothetical visit from some hypothetical friends. And then, me being caught completely off guard, Britta and Berto came to visit me. And they had gifts, for absolutely no reason at all. I opened my cards, and read them, which made me smile a lot, because 1)i got a drawing and amazing card from berto, and 2)britta's card was freaking funny. And then they give me some sidewalk chalk, little mermaid stickers, and a 4-inch foliage which they named Ben, for DCfC's Ben Gibbard. And the thought came to my mind at that moment that I probably know some of the very best people on earth. Seriously.

Monday was Morgan's barbeque, which was a lot of fun. And I learned a lot about myself also. It was, for sure, one of those growing up moments that you look back on and realize you've changed a little bit because of it. And you know, that's not always a bad thing. It's kind of nice to realize that you're stronger than you think you are, and that with the bad always comes enough good to balance it out, if only you're willing to look for it. And I'm finding out that 95% of the time, that good comes in the form of people doing things they don't even realize they do. Like bringing me four-inch foliages for no reason at all. Or organizing a party in front of snoshack. Or buying me cookies for making them happy. Or a hundred hundred other things I can't even put into words.

So I'll see you all in a little bit. Keep up the amazing.

Love, Jennifer

a good day

When my hair is all crispy and curly from spending all day at the lake, when I actually forget to eat because that's the last thing on my mind, when plans are never expected to be set in stone anymore, when slapping on tubes is the most fun in the world, when I get an adrenaline rush simply by listening to the perfect song, when we can sit and write songs on the beach, when you say something that completely makes my day, when we laugh for the longest time at nothing at all, and when I'm in the perfect spot--sitting with the sun on my shoulders and the wind to my face--then I know it's been a good day. :) It's been a good day.

Love, Jennifer.

a poem for a tuesday

I think we must be meant to fly


I think we must be meant to fly
Into the brightest azure sky,
For when the days are tight and dark,
It's then I feel my soul embark.

And when I've felt the greatest things,
It was because I'd used my wings.
And some days I just simply know
I've left my body down below.

And the greatest, freest part of me
Is farther than the eye can see
Deep inside the flawless sky,
I think we must be meant to fly.

And yet, it is to my disdain
To realize these legs are chains
That keep me to this concrete, tied.
Some days I cannot seem to fly.

I am grounded, reaching out
Towards the colors and the clouds
And wishing for so many things,
But most of all, for mended wings.

Until I'm finally broken free,
It's then I'll hear the symphonies.
And in the stillness of the skies,
I think we must be meant to fly.

I'm just a speck, so far away,
And soon it will be here I stay,
For I've become a piece of sky;
I think we must be meant to fly.


By,
And with love,
Jennifer

btw...

I just looked at all of Randi's pictures from California, and I must say that I am infinitely excited to go to chicago this summer. Ahhhhh happy sigh. That's all.

those people

Have you ever met someone you feel completely connected with and you have no idea why? I did today...well, not met, but just realized she was one of those people to me. It's such a weird feeling....I think it must be because we see something in them that reminds us of ourselves, only in a perfected form. There's something about them that just draws you to them, and you want it. You want to make it yours. And maybe the people you feel randomly connected to change because you yourself are changing. One day you may wake up to find that you see something amazing in someone new. And so you find a new golden person, until you change and they must change also. Hmm.

It was all rainy today, which is kind of upsetting after such great weather last week...but still, i'm feeling pretty dang good because we only have four more days.... ahhhh

Love, Jennifer

.

Well blog, it's just you and me.

so today was one of the crappiest days in memory, wouldn't you say? Yeah, me too. I think I'll go spend some quality time with some quality music, and then I'll sleep. And when I sleep, my mind will be free of it all and then I will wake up. And when I wake up, I won't remember a thing.

hello, goodbye, and love

"Hello is a salutation or greeting in the English language and is synonymous with other greetings such as Hi or Hey."

So Hello!

I kind of got up like half an hour early today, so I have some extra time. I am sooo happy! My trig final was yesterday, and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. And now it's over, and basically that was my last thing to do before school ends. Happy much? I sure am.

Ohh, so something weird. Yesterday I got home and felt really tired, so I slept for like two hours. Anyway, I had this dream that Berto got sick in California, and it was pretty sad, so when I woke up I texted Michael and told him. And he said that Berto was sick! And I kind of freaked out! ....because, hey, I knew about my saying things/them coming true, but now it's dreams too?? Weird. If I ever dream about any of you dying, I'm going to freak out. Lol.

So today everyone is planning on going to the lake after school, then to Shrek 3. And it kind of really sucks because I have to work, so I can't go to the lake. Bleah. But hopefully I'll be able to go to the movie. Cause that would be nice.

well, now my poptart is finished and I am also out of things to say. So,

"Goodbye (or the shortened form, goodby, sometimes used in American English) is a traditional farewell phrase used in the English language."

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection or profound oneness, Jennifer.

what we have in common...

"The earth is what we all have in common." -Wendell Barry

I found this quote today, and I like it a lot. So, there's Wednesday's quote of happiness.

It's been a crazy week. Last weekend was nice; it started to definitely feel like summer...which is basically what my whole week has been, just me looking forward to the coming months. So yeah. That's just consuming my every thought right now. Not much else to say.

If only I can get through the next two days, I'll be done. Yes, finished. It's been a long year, huh? And nuts. And I think we all probably regret something and believe in something and remember something amazing and want to forget some other stuff. But that's just how it goes, doesn't it?

Love, Jennifer

PS-Besto, Randi, and Michael are in California. Oh, jealousy.

sunday

Well. I am really excited because we have ten (yes...T-E-N) days of school left. And kind of bummed because people have been being weird and emo lately about things so we all never hang out together, which i miss a lot. Everyone's all split up, and it's no bueno. You hear me? No. Bueno.

Today was nice. I went to church, then came home and went outside on the trampoline in my swim suit for like two hours, and just enjoyed the great outdoors. Working on that tan. Lol, we'll see who calls me pasty.... (insert evil laugh)....

well, must go

Love

today

Today I loved:
*talking in the park
*chaos and experiencing shoudda
*feeling like I will make a difference in the world
*reading my own history

Today felt:
*like a light, mossy green :D
*laid-back
*okay

Today sounded like:
*mates of state
*the holiday
*"half acre" by hem
*some new nelly furtado, lol

Today I felt:
*relieved
*complete
*happy

Today I wanted:
*to better the world
*to remember everything
*summer. as always.


There's something about being completely honest about everything that makes even the crappy things feel better. And trusting someone with all of it just makes you feel better about humanity in general.....which is always nice.

Fourteen days of school left. :) Nine real days. And that is happiness.

Love, Jennifer

el cheapo.

So yesterday was El Cheapo, which was really fun. I went with Jake.

His brother was getting baptized that morning, so I went, along with Hannah, Jessica, and Enano. After everything, we went to his house for his family's party thing. There was so much good food! And...yes, that's right...a chocolate fountain!

I went home, and sort of got ready, then went to Enano's, where we were all meeting to go to the D.I. to get outfits for the date. we had so much fun picking out clothes for each other! All I will say is that Jake definitely wore a kilt and I had a genie costume. Lol. After we got our outfits we went to Enano's house again, where we changed, then went to Wendy's for dinner. Yum, and cheap. Then we met Erin's mom at JR Smith, where she took our pictures, and we huddled in the 'hole' to escape the freezing wind.

After that, we all went to Morgan's house, where we watched the Wedding Singer, and I started to feel funny. We got to the dance, and I realized I was getting sick, so I went to the bathroom because I felt like throwing up. (sorry, this is so gross...) Anyway, I felt like that for most of the time, but nothing ever really happened. And I really hope Jake didn't think I was avoiding him! Anyway, the dance was a lot of fun.

When it ended, Jake, Derek, Morgan and I went to Derek's house so he could make Jake an omelet. It was kind of funny. Jake had to take Morgan home, so I sat with Derek in the kitchen for a little bit, talking. He's a cool kid. After Jake ate his omelet,he took me to Enano's, where my car was, and I went inside to get my stuff (enano was really confused), then drove home. On the way, I was listening to The Holiday, and it totally matched my mood. Just because of everything that happened. Anyway, that was El Cheapo.

When I got home I finally threw up, which was actually exciting to me, because you always feel much better after! But it still sucked. Anyway, I spent all of last night waking up about every forty minutes because I kept having all these hallucination dreams, which happens every time I get sick. I hate that. Yuck. And now here I am, blogging. The End.

Love, Jennifer

You know what's nice? When people act mature and considerate. Oh.

"much simpler, but much less magical."

It's been a weird day. Things aren't going very well. I've totally held onto this idea for a REALLY long time now, but....you know, nothing. And lately it's like the universe is trying to tell me something.

Morgan and I were at the Hotpots earlier tonight, just kind of talking about life, and I realized that eventually (eventually...) we'll have to let go of all this high school stuff. And even if things did go how I'd maybe like them to right now, it wouldn't matter so much because high school's about to end and I have to move on in my life. and I feel like crap saying that, honestly. But it's true. But that's what it's all about, I guess. Stages.

Trey Parker said, "Love isn't a decision. It's a feeling. If we could decide who we loved, it would be much simpler, but much less magical." I keep having this thought though, that I don't know the right guy yet. He's not in my life at this moment. Which kind of sucks, but he's there somewhere. Like, I just keep feeling like I shouldn't have to try this hard. When it happens, the real thing, it will just happen and it won't take so much WORK. That's what I'm feeling like tonight. And it's kind of depressing, because I still like him. A lot.

That's about all.

Love, Jennifer