Thursday, April 23, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Excess is excess.
April 14, 2009
I've been trying my hardest to stay in the present lately and enjoy what I have while I have it, but that's always been difficult for me. I love to think about the past. I always worry about the future, especially now. It's funny, somehow I thought once I made it to college and past all those decisions, it would be all set for a long while without too much anxiety. Not true! Anyway, I've been ruining my happiness lately by freaking out over all of this rather than enjoying what's in front of me at the time. In light of all of this, I think I need to adjust the way I look at things, not only right now, but for the summer as well. I really think I need to simplify. A lot! I feel like my life's become overly, unnecessarily filled with extremely unimportant things. I really want to get rid of a lot of stuff. Material things--clothes, unused things, unnecessary things. Maybe eBay will make me some money this way :) But more than that, maybe I will have the clarity I desire if I'm less distracted by the material when I should be focusing on the important.
So anyway, that's how I'm feeling as of now, which has led to a few goals:
I've been trying my hardest to stay in the present lately and enjoy what I have while I have it, but that's always been difficult for me. I love to think about the past. I always worry about the future, especially now. It's funny, somehow I thought once I made it to college and past all those decisions, it would be all set for a long while without too much anxiety. Not true! Anyway, I've been ruining my happiness lately by freaking out over all of this rather than enjoying what's in front of me at the time. In light of all of this, I think I need to adjust the way I look at things, not only right now, but for the summer as well. I really think I need to simplify. A lot! I feel like my life's become overly, unnecessarily filled with extremely unimportant things. I really want to get rid of a lot of stuff. Material things--clothes, unused things, unnecessary things. Maybe eBay will make me some money this way :) But more than that, maybe I will have the clarity I desire if I'm less distracted by the material when I should be focusing on the important.
So anyway, that's how I'm feeling as of now, which has led to a few goals:
- get rid of the "extraneous" things, as neil would call them.
- drive my car as little as possible. Fix up the red bike once again and fall in love with it once again.
- do something meaningful that makes me feel alive. I have a pretty good idea of what this is.
- spend my time with the most important people to me.
- give generously
- be present
- live authentically.
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