I am FRUSTRATED

Weekend

Well, I decided I need to blog more often, which is why I'm blogging right now, although I actually have nothing to say. So therefore this will probably be really boring. Today was good, I went to church and then choir practice (where we're learning an awesome song!), then came home and slept for awhile.

Then Morgan called at like 5:30, with some great news! Haha, good job Morgan! I'm very happy, and hopefully your perfect image of the three of us will work out...:) JK....but that would still be cool.

So more about State Swimming.... Friday was pretty cool, except for how we sat in the very top, where the heat was UNBEARABLE! Hannah, Neil, Nathaniel, Randi, and I hung out up there, though, so it was pretty fun. Again, Hannah remembers all the results, so consult her. Bus ride home....haha, two words, "cuddle buddy."

Saturday I went to work in the morning, and got to leave a little bit early so that I could catch the swim bus again at 2:30. I thought Saturday was a little bit more exciting swimming, so that was good. Oh, and also we didnt' sit at the very top this time, although we were sitting in front of this aisle nazi who yelled at people he knew, complete strangers, small children, old ladies, and even his neighbors or friends or whatever because they were standing in the aisle. What a psycho!

After it ended, we went to the Training Table, where Neil and I had a thumb war war, where I definately won, both times. :) There was no need for the third, because obviously I had already won. He won't admit it, but it's the truth. After that we rode the bus back to the high school, much like friday's bus ride home...

Once we got back pretty much everyone went to Jake's house for an after-party sort of thing. That means pretty much everyone just eating ice cream and drinking soda (bad, bad!), and watching highlights of the meet. Seeing as how I know pretty much nothing about the technical side of swimming, it wasn't that interesting, although it was kind of fun anyway. Once I decided to go home, I said goodbye, then walked downstairs to go out through the garage. Except before I got there, I could hear someone playing a guitar in this room, which intrigued me :)... turns out it was Jackson and Neil, in jake's room. And by the way, Jackson is really, really good. Must be the fact that his guitar is "possessed by the devil." So I stayed for a while longer, listening to neil and jackson...probably the coolest thing ever is seeing jackson and neil playing/singing "wonder boy"!! Finally I HAD to go home, so I did, and then fell asleep in my clothes. Ugh. hate that.

THE END.

Love, Jennifer

PS- Jake has this blown-up picture of himself swimming in his room. :) Not 'swimming in his room' but this 'picture of himself swimming' .....in his room. hahaha, ok then.

Poptarts and Apple Juice

Wow....finally home, for the first (actual) time in like 2 1/2 days. The first thing I do? Get poptarts and apple juice. I've been watching State swimming for the past two days, which was pretty fun. Most of the time anyway. if you want to know specific outcomes and all that, read hannah's blog. For here, we'll just say i got to hang out with some awesome people.

Love, Jennifer

El Cheapo

El Cheapo was last night.....really really fun. It was great because, hey, it was el cheapo, and also it was casual so it was a lot more fun. Our date was pretty long, like 11 1/2 hours, at least, but still great.

First of all, since Kasey had to work until "3", the rest of us went iceskating at noon. It was really great, we hardly fell over at all. Mostly we just skated around and around, talking about swimming and who everybody liked, and all that; plus, morgan and I got scammed on juice boxes and we all got yelled at for "skating too fast" during open public session. "hey lady, is this lesson session or what?" after a couple hours we all went up to Joseph's house (my date), Neil getting lost on the way because we took a small detour to my house. Neil, Neil, Neil. (Or should I say, Corneilius.)

We kind of expected Kasey to get there at three, so we watched "A series of Unfortunate Events" while we waited for him, not knowing he wouldn't get there until like 4:30. Jeez, Kasey. We finally started making pizzas, (mmm), and Kasey came, along with Madeline and Sean who were now in our group. Zonino!

After we ate, everyone got dressed in their snow clothes (Victoria's group was jealous of our amazing date :) ) and we went sledding. It was so much fun! The snow was way deep, seeing as how Joseph lives on a mountain, and everytime you'd wreck you'd be buried halfway down in the snow. It was great.

After that we went back inside, peeled off our wet snowclothes, and then left to go to our houses to change. I did my hair in record time, like 3 minutes. Finally we went to the high school for pictures, and of course, the dance. Mine and Joseph's pictures are The Best, ever. Serious. I'm actually holding Joseph, who is wearing a chef hat that says "boys' night out" or something like that, and I'm wearing a curly black wig (with brown ends, of course) and devil horns. We look very happy. hahaha

After pictures, we went into the other gym for the actual dance. Let me say, WAY too much rap. Gross. Other than that, we had a lot of fun, even if the DJ had no Ozone whatsoever. Who wouldn't have Ozone? I mean, come on. Well, off to do my homework...

I wish Hannah would've been there, but my dad has a nice surprise for her anyway. :)

Poem Time

A poem by Hannah and I

I like cocoa
I like puffs
I like many, many stuffs.

I like pork and
I like rice
I like things that taste this nice.

I like islands
I like sand
I like boys who hold my hand.

I like milk and
I like ducks
I like water very much.

I like gloves, oh
I like boots
I like Grandmas, they are cute.

Love Jennifer

Saturday Morning

It was really good--I got like 9 hours of sleep last night! I feel great now. Except today won't be an especially fun day really. I have to clean my room, then do Alg. 2 (1010) homework (which thankfully shouldn't be that hard), and then later tonight I have to bus. Which I'm actually happy about because I have NO money right now. So anyway, there's my day.

And also i have to figure out a cheap date for my el cheapo date. although i'm pretty sure joseph should be planning it anyway. :) haha oh well...
Love, Jennifer

Almost New Year's

It's almost New year's, and I'm pretty excited about that! It's good to have a week off, but honestly, it's been booooring. I havent' really done anything at all, and I'm going nuts. Maybe I'll (hopefully....no, no, I WILL) get all of my homework finished today. Well...most of it. But I definately have to finish my first roll of film, and definately algebra 2, and at least one poem. Guess what, I used to like poetry. Now that's been ruined as well. Oh well.
At least I finally got rid of my ancient nokia and got a new cell phone. if i may say so, it kicks butt. INCLUDING that of Hannah's and Morgan's cell phones. So HA.
Love, Jennifer

2 Days...

Ohh am I excited. Christmas is in two days! Pretty much everyone's favorite holiday of the year, and definately mine. Yesterday was a good day at school, except for how we had a million tests, but it was fun because everyone was handing out presents. Ummm not much else to say, but if I get bored, more later..
Oh I hope Morgan's feeling OK!

4 days...

Only four more days till Christmas! That's sooo good, because hey, i love Christmas. Uhhh let's see. Oh. So I don't like the person I had a huge crush on anymore, or less anyway, but that's kind of for no reason at all. I just do that. Man, I look like an idiot now, but I thought I should be honest.

Christmas will be good this year. I'm excited for one certain "present" for one of my friends. Although it's not exactly a gift, but yet it is. The greatest gift of all, in fact. :) But yeah. I'm not sure how it'll turn out, but I have to try because none of this was ever about me anyway. It's a good, scary feeling. You know. Lol, I hope so, cause I don't.

Merry Crispus everyone.
Love, Jennifer

Good Stuff

Soo I'm deciding snow's not so great after all. It's really really slippery to drive in, and not a lot of fun. Scary... But i'm still in a really good mood, just because of christmas coming up and um...liking someone new and all. and he's actually not a jerk this time. I don't think. And yay! I get to see Hannah tomorrow and then on Tuesday we have an fbla competition! It'll be a good week. :)

Snow!

It's finally snowing. Well, the 'real' kind of snow, I guess. Not the little sprinkling kind. Real snow. I'm pretty excited! Except for this will be my first winter driving, and that's a little bit scary, but I'm sure I'll survive. As long as I don't slide off a road somewhere or something, that is. Haha, just kidding Hannah/Morgan!

Nothing really important's been happening. A few days ago Hannah taught me to cue, and that was really cool. It's all part of this English service project thing we have to do, but I would've still wanted to learn how anyway, cause hey, it's just a good thing to do. Anyway, I've kind of been practicing, but it's sort of weird because there's no one besides Hannah and her family to practice with. So I just look like I'm making odd hand signals to anyone who saw me but didn't know what I was doing. Oh well.

I really don't like not liking anyone. Because at least when I like someone I have things to look forward to. But nooooo. There's no one! There WAS someone, but he proved himself to me the other night. And it wasn't in a good way. I don't know, I kind of thought I knew him, and I should've, but what I thought mattered to him and then how he actually acted ended up being two different things. I don't understand why I liked him again anyway. I really don't. Morgan thinks he's one of those people who I'll always be attached to in some way. Maybe we all have one of those. But the odd thing is, after everything bad that happened last year with me/him, this simple, seemingly meaningless small act spoke more to me than anything else had so far. Maybe that's what's different this time. Maybe that will prove that I won't "always" be attached to him. And that would be just fine. I don't know. I really thought he was different.

Thanksgiving....Yum, Yum

Thanksgiving was really good this year. Maybe because we did it twice?? Haha, no, it was just good spending time with my family, immediate and extended. My favorite part was the stuffing! It was soooo yummy. ---ahh i have to go..

I'm Back

FBLA was amazing! We met some really really cool guys and hung out with them quite a bit (as much as we could anyway). Kind of makes me like "Wosatch" guys even less. anyway, we went to some workshop type things and walked around to the malls, morgan's mom's office...that kind of stuff. i'm feeling really lazy though, so that's all for now.
Love, Jennifer

fbla

It's finally the day I've been waiting for! We leave tomorrow morning to go to the FBLA fall conference, and man, am I excited. Sadly I had to miss Turkey Trot, but I think it'll be alright because fbla is way better than dumb guys anyway! haha....

I just realized my blogs are about pretty much nothing and pretty much no one reads them, so I could "pretty much" just write whatever I wanted in here. But what do I want to write? ....uh, nothing. My life's kind of boring right now. That's all right though, because things should start getting a little bit busier in the near future.....thanksgiving, then christmas, then new classes, then after a bit track will be starting and i'll probably have to work a little bit more, too.

but mostly all I care about (besides the holidays, of course) is track, because I feel really really lazy doing only homework and sitting around playing my guitar. I'd like to say I'm getting better at both, but no, only at guitar. School's been weird this year. Way harder than I expected. Maybe that's a good thing? .....I don't know. Anyway, I need to study more, but hate doing that, so I sit around thinking about how I need to study more. Well that doesn't get me anywhere. Maybe I'll just grow up to be a hobo? wait, maybe I won't even grow up. cause I bet it takes practice to reach that level of maturity, and I'm really lazy, remember? My point is, I AM LAZY. So that's why I'm looking forward to track. Nice, huh?

Getting Good

Soooooo...things are getting good. At least I think they are. You know what sucks but is still good-feeling at the same time? Liking someone, that's what. It sucks cause it's not always really great, especially if you think things won't come out perfectly or that the other person might not actually like you back. BUT (and the but is the part where it's good-feeling) there's still that hope that things might just turn out perfect and that that other person might just like you like you like them. And that's what makes it all interesting and worth it, I guess.

I decided though, things should be done right this time if I really do like him. I need to change some and hopefully, (cause hopefully everyone is growing up all the time) he has changed some, too. But either way, I'm excited about this cause I'm actually feeling something, and that's good!

Well, i'm being kicked off, so i'll continue these thoughts later...hopefully.
Love, Jennifer

Holidays

Well, Halloween's over, but I will say it was pretty fun, although nothing major happened and also my mother wouldn't let me go trick-or-treating. But it was good anyway....I was a genie from the 70's and hammah was "little red riding from the hood". it rocked :)

So Halloween's over, and next we have Thanksgiving, and then of course Christmas. Is it purely coincidental that these approaching holidays and my increasing happiness are happening at the same time? I think not. I'm really excited about the holidays, namely Christmas, and that's a good thing because you know what, it makes me happy. so voila (wah-la ahem... lol). if you feel sad, listen to christmas music or something, cause man, it makes me feel good.

well, my homework's (finally) finished, so i'd best go read my BOM. lol, bom, not bomb. goodnight.

Home Sick

Welll I am sooo tired of doing nothing! I felt like crap when i woke up this morning and decided to stay home from school. good thing, too. but it was really (really) boring. watch tv, read magazines, sleep, watch tv, drink 7-up (which, in this case, isn't really breaking 'the rule' is it hannah?), sleep, read magazines, stare at things. I hate being sick. It's the worst. Hopefully i'll be completely better tomorrow, seeing as how i have to work and all. but it's UEA! Number one, why do i have to work over uea? and number two, why should i have to be sick over uea??

So mostly I sat around wishing I were at school....wait, no, not that. Wishing I weren't home sick, I guess, reading random blogs. Man, there are people with really messed up lives. Lol. Makes me feel slightly better...

I'm pretty confused today, but what else is new? I had to work earlier, and man was it busy! I hate it when it's so messed up and crazy that you don't even have time to stop and breathe. Oh well....I guess i survived, didn't I? Anyway, it's been a dumb weekend so far.
I did have a really weird dream about....people. haha...never mind.

No, I did not die.

Despite what you may think, I am not dead. I have simply been too lazy to blog lately. Lazy or busy? I don't know. Haha.... well. Not too much has happened. The 'fammy's' still awesome. I even got to meet clawface's boyfriend! He was really cool....i'm just sad he lives in idaho and all of the guys in 'wosatch' are stupid.

Hannah is at a swimmeet today....kind of makes me wish i would've been on the swim team. but right now that's not really the best thing...I'm focused on going to Europe this summer! If I can convince my dad to let me go, and earn the money...that would be sooo good. anyway, maybe this will satisfy you, Heb? it better, or else...

Stupid

It's been soooo cold today! And it was kind of a sucky day anyway. I hate....lol "everything". JK, Heb. I just want to have fun for like, one whole week without having issues with people or homework or anything. That would be really good.
well, that's all i really have to say.